I’m beginning to get that this year of the horse just isn’t going to quit. Full-gallop is the new pace, and it’s not letting up. In the first two months of the year I felt like I was flopping all over the place on this crazy horse, fists gripped, just wishing it would slow down. But in the last month I’ve gained a better grasp on the reins, a clearer sense of where I’d like to ...

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Yesterday morning I heard the painful sound of a bird crashing full speed into a window in the place that I’m living. I went outside to find a black phoebe on it’s back, wings splayed out, totally dazed. Before my fiercely efficient huntress of a cat could get to it, I picked up the bird and cradled it in the warmth of my hands. I have done this many times before over the years, and I ...

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On Monday my counselor gave me the homework to do some emotional release work around some really big anger I was feeling. I was ready….except the fact that the space I’m living in right now is an apartment that shares a wall with the landlord’s home. So I got off the phone with my counselor and I waited for the lovely sixty-something single woman who lives next door to leave. In about an hour when ...

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Here’s a little chat I had with Stella Grizont of Woopaah about embodiment, self-love and our take on new year’s intentions. http://www.spreecast.com/events/embodiment-and-self-love-with-jay-fields Enjoy!

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I’ve been getting my butt kicked since mid-November when I experienced a loss that made me nauseous with a frantic, clawing desire to be anywhere but in my own experience. Even though I knew it was coming, it was the kind of loss that once I accepted that it was real, it turned me inside out and my life upside down. It has shifted entirely the shape, appearance and feel of the threshold that leads into ...

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Teaching yoga during this time of year, there’s a weight of expectation that you will theme your classes around gratitude and love. In theory this sounds appealing, in practice I find it difficult to stomach. I’m not a believer in manufacturing “good” feelings. Yes, you can cultivate love and gratitude, and this is a worthwhile practice, but you can’t fake them. Love and gratitude are not cognitive or willful acts. They are feelings, their very essence is visceral. This ...

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Just last week I was saying to a friend that even though I love that many of my days are spent at home curled up with a cup of tea, a computer on my lap and 2 napping 4-leggeds, there are times when the writing aspect of my work just feels lonely and disconnected. Even worse: sometimes it feels self-indulgent and useless. But I do it because I can’t not do it. I do it because writing ...

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Last night when I opened the backdoor to let the puppy out one last time before going to bed, something low to the ground just a few feet into the yard caught my eye when it moved. Is it a really big mouse? A gopher? When the motion sensor light clicked on I realized it was a tiny, tiny opossum. As the dog and cat tumbled out the door between my feet I thought, “Oh this isn’t going ...

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We’re coming up on week 5 of the Soul of Yoga Teaching calls, and it’s becoming more clear what they’re all about. I mean, I knew what I wanted them to be like when I started them, but these things are wont to take on a life of their own. Kind of like giving birth to a baby and then choosing to get to know him for awhile before you settle on a name… Inspired by last week’s ...

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When I was in my early 20′s and first traveling on airplanes solo I had a predilection for making up stories about my identity. “Are you traveling for business or pleasure?” my seatmate would inquire. “Business. I work for a dotcom startup and we’re gathering for a strategic planning meeting.” I was always sure to choose an assumed role that I knew enough about in order to support a lengthy conversation. I was also sure to always have ...

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